An Ending, A Beginning
An ending, a beginning;
An opening, a closing;
Expansion, contraction…
The letting go that comes with deep transformation.
This is the energy of the upcoming Full Moon in Scorpio on May 12, 2025.
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It seems to be a universal truth that we can’t step into a new version of ourselves without some kind of letting go - a death of sorts. It’s as if we can’t make room for all that’s coming unless we relinquish those old parts of ourselves that we’ve been holding on to so tightly, but are keeping us stuck in the same place. A painful truth I’ve come to realize is that some parts of ourselves simply cannot take up space where we’re going…into the great unknown of true transformation.
As I sit here in my own liminal space between who I have been and who I want to be, I have a great sense of fear that fills my mind with “what if’s”. What if my family can’t accept this new version of me? What if I never make any money again if I leave my stable job behind? What if society doesn’t accept this version of me? What if, what if what if…
Intellectually I know that this fear I have is actually a sign that I’m on the right path. I know that just on the other side of this fear lies the possibility of my fulfilled dreams, and who I have been working so diligently to become. But deep down in my mind and body, I am afraid. I am clinging to the safety and assurance of what is and has been, all the while creating a new version of myself. But this version of self I’ve been clinging to and the new version of me cannot coexist.
This growth has been both exhilarating, and excruciating. I suppose this is what growth feels like, though. It’s not linear and it’s definitely messy and imperfect. I truly feel like a caterpillar in a cocoon - like my insides have been turned into mush as I’m being re-made into something new. Being in this space of transformation has me wondering if I can trust the process enough to not give up before the magic can even begin. Can I free fall into the unknown?
Can I instead ask myself, “What if it goes better than I could have ever imagined?”
This is what I’m leaning on as I move from what is, to what can be. I’m leaning on my intuition that tells me this is my path, being a guide for people to help them reclaim their power. Even though doing something different with my life is scary as hell, I’m trusting the ever-true direction of Source and my soul to guide me where I need to be. I am trusting that an ending is a beginning - if I allow it to be.
Thank you for being on this journey with me, and welcome my new website for all things intuition, energy, and astrology. I’m so grateful you are here.
